“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7
This is the first question that came to mind after the elation of the positive pregnancy test wore off. It’s the question that signified my being hit with a dose of reality (and, if I am honest, fear).
My internal conversation went something like this:
“ WOW, it’s positive. IT’S POSITIVE!! We’re pregnant. God, Thank you. Wow. We’re pregnant …Oh my goodness, we’re pregnant – Now what? We don’t know how to raise a child, how do we know which midwife to choose, what do I eat, I need vitamins, what if we miscarry this time, what did I did do, what do I do…?”
And, God intercepted my thoughts with:
“Kim, cast all your anxieties on me because I care for you.” Peace.
It was a sweet moment really, one reminiscent of many movie scenes when a loved one tenderly, yet firmly, keeps another from “falling off the deep end”. I could almost feel His hands as I imagined Him cupping my face, looking me in the eye, reassuring me that He has me, has us, in this process.
So, with that assurance we move forward. Yes, I still take vitamins, exercise and eat healthy (usually :D). But, as anxieties creep up (and they do), and fear attempts to seep in (and it does), I remember God’s words. He is a Sovereign God who created the universe in 6 days without lifting a single finger until He chose to fashion man with His hands. He has successfully populated the world for generations, creating people of all nationalities, in different locations, speaking different languages, all uniquely and individually knit together – in His image. And, He keeps it all going.
I think He can handle this, so I’m…
Striving to cast off anxieties,
p.s. I’m playing catch-up for the next few days/weeks, so there should be a few more updates (and pics) soon. The pics are more for my family and friends who aren’t here to see the growth. A little way to take you with me on the journey…